July 2-2010

I know that I haven't posted in a very long time, but I have been on a little R and R. Jim had a conference at the lake, so Bailee, my Mom and I joined him. My mom got her own room, which was great Bailee slept with her the majority of the time. It was great to wake up and take your time getting ready, how I cherished that but I also missed the snuggle time in the morning with my little girl. Mom's room was right across the street from the pool, so we spent 2 days in the pool, so relaxing. Overall, it was a great trip! Can't wait to go next year.

Bailee turned 2!

It truly amazes me that

1. I have a daughter

2. She has really been a easy baby/toddler

3. She is talking so much more just in the past week

4. That I get to be her mom

We went to take the annual Birthday photos, and for a special surprise I got Jim to take a family picture! My husband doesn't like to get his photo taken at all so we were especially excited. And I even got coordinating shirts.(thanks Tina)

I have not run in almost 2 weeks. I do plan on getting back to it on Monday. I can't say that I really missed running, but I miss not being able to eat what I want and having the scale go up! My friend from High School called me today and reminded me that we have a little over a year before my 20 year reunion. So I have to get at it. I just hope that when I start up again that I am not starting totally over, I am so scared that I am not even going to make .5 mile.

I do hope that everyone has a great and safe 4th of July!

After the Race

So last week, after the race I ran everyday. I ran/jog at least a mile. I took off Saturday and Sunday, Monday came and I got up at my normal time, but I didn't run. All day I felt bad! I felt huge, lazy, insecure, and ugly. So this morning Jake, our dog had to go out at 4:45 this morning, so I let him out and after doing my routine (turning on the computer, checking email, facebook and blogs) I decided that I have to run! No matter what! So I ran my mile. I could so tell that taking an extra day off is not good. While I was running I was thinking, Kim really a half marathon? You are not going to do that! Stop kidding yourself. I have lost my fire. I am hoping that even though I am not fired up, that by running at least a mile each week day I can regain my spark. I hate that I lose interest or start thinking negatively about myself.

On a lighter note, Bailee is turning two! I can't believe it. When you ask her how old is she going to be? She says 2 and tries to get her fingers to show two. I am not having a party for her, I know shocking. Jim and I talked and decided that since we are going to the Lake for 4 days, we can celebrate it there. We plan on taking her to the Waterpark and Miner Mikes (not 100% sure if it age appropriate but we are going to try) We just think that even though every birthday is a huge milestone, we don't have to have a huge party this year. I am truly looking forward to our trip to the lake and spending time with all the people I love. And just getting out of this town!

Good Morning!

Bailee had a sleep over at Grammies, and I don't exercise on Saturdays so I was able to sleep until 7:00 this morning! I haven't done that in a long time. But I woke up with a stuffy nose. I hate that you have to turn your head constantly all night.

Anyways I have been on a reorganization/ cleaning spree! Last Friday I cleaned zone 1 of the garage, yes my garage got so overwhelming that I had to divide it up in zones. I have 4 zones and I am hoping that I will start zone 3 today. What happen with zone 2, well I need some supplies for it and with funds a little low I have to skip it for now! I also hope to clean Bailee's room, while she is gone. Bailee's room is so bad that Chrissy came over and went in there and started picking it up, I told her to drop the books and back away from the mess. I was a little embarrassed but you know I didn't really care. I am not saying that I want my daughters room to look like a disaster, especially when she gets older. I really need to step it up a notch and teach her how to pick up and put up! I am just having this battle that I am tired of picking up after other adults (did you see how I didn't mention someone's name) I really don't mind somethings, like shoes, keys, sunglasses, or the watch. But I mean really when it is trash throw it away! I even bought a trash can when you step on it the lid comes up for you! Okay enough about that. I was wondering what are your organization/cleaning tips?

What have I done for me lately?

What I have done for me is, I ran a 5K!

Last Saturday I got up at 4:30 am got ready and Chrissy Adams and I went to St Louis. I won't bore you with all the details, so here are the highlights!

After getting our shirts and pictures taken we headed to the starting line. They block all the runner together so that we can pass through the gate that times us. By the way, technology is truly amazes me. On the racing bib is a thing that looks like double sided tape and that is what tracked us at the start and finish line.

Anyways, back to the starting line, we got there and there was no one that looked like me! I am truly freaking out! On the verge of tears I mean all these people are skinny and are a true runner-then I saw her! She was my target! (Really hope that I don't offend anyone and if I do I am sorry) She was a very curvaceous woman, about my age maybe a little older. I had a goal and that was to beat her. So the race began and I came up on her and passed her and never looked back. My first challenge was complete, I do wish I had remembered her number, but anyways I felt great next challenge the hill!

Chrissy and I trained for this around the neighborhood, no hills, no steep inclines nice and level. Remember, when training add a hill! I had to get up this hill and I did. Last challenge to keep running and don't stop! Okay I did stop running for all of 2 minutes then I saw the finish line. And I ran towards the gate after crossing the gate I was so relieved. Like a weight was lifted off my shoulders, and I was still alive!

Chrissy and I sat under a tree and drank water and cooled off. I do regret that I didn't experience the true meaning of this day. I was there focusing on running and nothing else. To me accomplishing this was my fight. On Sunday morning I did wake up and watch the highlights of that day, and that is when the emotions of that day hit. All those women fighting Breast Cancer.

The rest of Sunday I was in pain. I felt muscles that I didn't know I had. I did take it very easy Sunday and reflected on my adventure of running. I realize many things. I realize that even though I can jog it isn't the same as running. I realize that I can do better! And be better! I don't want to be a one time race runner that I want to do more. And in doing so I have to raise my minium no more a mile and that is okay. I HAVE TO DO MORE TO GET MORE! My new motto. I have to be the complete package. I can't just do one and not another, I have to do both eating better and exercising. So what am I going to do about this.

As you know I had been going to Weight Watchers, and even though I did lose weight I didn't stay on program. Yes, I am being honest, I didn't keep track no one ever looked at my food journal so I figured if no one sees what I have eaten then did I really eat it? I know pretty stupid, but if you have a weight problem I think you might have an idea what I am saying. So I plan on going back to Weight Watchers first week of July and talking to the leader. And even if I have to pay her extra I have to have her check my food journal, it is the only way I will stay with it and be held accountable. I am also challenging my fellow bloggers and friends, shoot me an email or comment and ask me about it. I realized that the more people ask me about my eating the better I do. I don't think I will get to my birthday goal, and that is okay. But I will be a lot healthier at 37 then I was the past 20 something years.

I also want to thank everyone for your nice comments and encouraging words! You have kept me going and I hope that in a small way I can do the same. I did delete my blog for a while because I didn't feel that I had anything to say, but I realize that I do. Thanks, for listening and caring.

Wordless Wednesday!

My first Wordless Wednesday entry.

Update 5-25

I haven't felt inspired to write anything in a while and really I don't now, but I am tired at looking at my old post.

Anyways I did want to update on the running. I have slacked a little, I can't tell you the last time I ran over 2 miles, but I am still running 5 days a week at least a mile. My weight is still up and down but I am not stressing over it. I am still less, a lot less then when I started. I am not obsessed on getting on the scale 10 times a day. I have actually skipped days in weighing myself, which is really huge for me. Today I have a weigh in at WW. I have decided that since I am not following the program 100% that I am going to go every other week. I really love the meetings, it really makes me think about my relationship with food. And it will save some money!

I am thinking about bringing a 5K to St. James, during the Sip 'n Savor? What do y'all think? Some think it is a little contradicting, and I see there point, but I think it would draw more people to the 5K? Let me know your thoughts?

So that is all I have for now. I hope that everyone is doing great and enjoying the start to summer!

The Best Mother's Day Gift

I know that my husband is not great at getting me gifts and I have accepted that. And I know that this Mother's Day we don't have any money to go get me anything and that is fine. So today when I went to pick up Bailee from the babysitter I was so surprised to receive this. It brought me to tears. You see you can't buy this at a store, so in my eyes it is the best gift ever!

In case you can't read the poem it says:

Sometimes you get discouraged

Because I am so small

And always leave my fingerprints

On furniture and walls

But every day I'm growing

I'll be grown up some day

But all these tiny fingerprints

Will surely fade away.

So here is a final fingerprint

Just so you can recall

Exactly how my fingers looked

When I was very small.