Random Thoughts

Here are a few thoughts that have been floating in my head

How is Bailee or Jim and I going to do during our drive to Texas?

How I miss living in a big town.

If I will ever get back to Texas for good.

What did I do before Bailee.

I love it when Bailee sees me when I am picking her up at the babysitter.

I wish that we were really close to be out of debt, like 3-4 months close.

When we do get out of debt where are we going to go on our cruise.

Misses a dear friend in Holister, Mo.

Wanting to redo the house-floors, baseboards, doors and paint

I have been praying for a friend and I hope that they get there answer soon.

Wonders why my husband doesn't know where the trash can is located, he has lived here for 10 years.

Doesn't understand why our government is in the red and why is China holding our debt?

Wishing that I could talk to the president

I wonder why I go to bookstores, buy books but when I get home I am not interested in them anymore.

Can't wait for the next "Me, Myself and I" day.

Frustrated that I found a wallet that I like and when I get home the zipper was broke on it

Wonders if anyone really reads my blogs

Hoping that the rest of this year goes by fast

These are just a few thoughts that I have had lately.

WiW on Sunday

So I didn't blog on WiW because I was embarrased. Last week I was on my 2nd week of my workouts and I didn't workout all the days I was suppose to. I can give every reason why I didn't, but all the excuses don't really matter. Simply put I just didn't do it. I did get up this morning and worked out. I really didn't want to but I did it and feel great. I lost 2 lbs, just 18 more to go!

I would like to thank my friend Chrissy! She said something in passing that I really never thought about. We were talking about T-shirts. And I started thinking that I always wear my husbands XXL. I wear them for the obvious reasons they are big and comfy. And I don't think about how tight or uncomfortable my own shirts are. But I need to have that consent reminder that my clothes are uncomfortable and tight. So no more XXL shirts for me!

The search for the perfect Wallet

Okay this is the part that I hate about not being able to get what I want when I want it! Thanks Dave Ramesy.

I need a new wallet and I have been looking at them for a month. I went to the Hallmark store about 2 weeks ago and found this wallet that has initials on it. I was like that is the wallet I want. Of course, I didn't have the money at the time. So I knew that I was getting a check from a small job I did that would cover the cost. I left the store thinking Dave would be so proud! So I got the money and went back to the store today.

You probably know what is coming.

Yep they didn't have it anymore. I looked at the letter 'K' and 'A', both were sold out. Now I have to start all over in my wallet search. And of course I know there is not a wallet in town or Rolla that I like because the one that I love is gone and the others don't measure up.

By the way the lady was so nice in telling me that they have a layaway plan after the fact :(

Luckily I am having a Me Myself and I day on Saturday. So the search continues!!

WiW

Okay I know that I have not posted anything in a couple of weeks. I had some computer issues and then other stuff. Anyways, I wish I had something positive to report but I don't I gain about 5 lbs. in the past couple of days. Yes days! I am pretty upset about it.

But Jim and I watched the Biggest Loser last night and there is a woman who lost her husband and both of her kids, one of them was 2 or 3 weeks old. I sat there and thought this woman Abby, has incredible strength, even though she gain weight she still got out of bed every morning and didn't give up on life. I thought what would I do if today Jim and Bailee were taken from me? Would I be able to get up or just curl up and do nothing. And then I realized I am doing nothing! I haven't suffered the lose of my whole family, so why am I still doing nothing. A couple of months ago I watched a info-mercial on the FIRM Wave. I borrowed the exercise videos my neighbor had that were the FIRM exercise program and really enjoyed them, however doing an hour of cardio I didn't like. I did see results. The Wave is different more like step aerobics. So I saved up for it and I ordered it! Which for me to buy something for myself is very rare. It came in last week. I went over the workout calendar and decided that starting Sunday would be the best day to start. And I did! I used to be a 4 or 5 in the morning person as long as I was going to work not working out. But I am happy to report that I have been sticking with the workout calendar. I have enjoyed getting up early, after I workout I get my pink cup of ice water and watch the sun come up. Side note: If you haven't watched the sun come up lately it is a beautiful thing!

So if you walk by my house at 5 in the morning on S,M,W,TH,F you will see the fat girl not doing nothing.

A question for everyone

If you had a do over what would you do over?

My do over would be, talking to the birth mother after Bailee was born. The day after Bailee was born I felt a overwhelming need to talk to her, even though some people thought I shouldn't, mainly the social worker. (that is a story in itself) But I just had to tell her what was in my heart. But some of y'all might know that when I get emotional I cry. So I walked into her room and just let it all out and it didn't come out pretty. I cried and tried to get out what I was feeling. I don't regret going in there and talking to her I just wished I could have done it better and I should have written it all out, so I wouldn't have repeated myself so much. But it is what it is.

Do you have a do over?

Questions

Why do some people get under my skin? Why do I feel that I am competing with them and there lives? Why do I always compare myself to them?

Am I happy with my life? Yes I am very happy with what I have. Would I have changed anything? Nope this is the way my life is suppose to be.

So why do I feel like this with certain people?

Do you ever feel like this? Or is it just me? If you have an answer please share it with me.