It just gets to me...

I love music! I enjoy singing, even though I am bad at it. Music can put me in such a great mood. I wish I could write music I think it is an amazing talent for those who can. However, there are a handful of songs that when I hear them I break down and cry. And I am talking about the ugly cry! There are two songs that every church sings, 'How Great Thou Art' and 'Amazing Grace' everytime I hear these songs I have an ugly cry moment. One of these songs was played at my Dad's funeral, and hearing it just takes me back to a day I would like to forget. And my Grandmother said that it will be played at her funeral when she passes. Another day I am not looking forward to.

So today at church I read the bullentin and saw the song 'How Great Thou Art' I sat there thinking I can do this. I can sit here and sing this song and not shed a tear. Then it happened...a flood of memories of that day in July. I started to tear up so I left. Jim wasn't with me so I was able to make my escape and I got Bailee and came home. As I drove home I thought about all the great times my Dad and I had. Which made my tears go away. I hope that one day I can set through church and listen to these songs that I do enjoy without crying.

Happy Friday To All!

I hope that today is the start of a good weekend for everyone.

I have been frustarted this week.

1. Mostly with Jake, the dog. I know that he is getting old, and that I should have more patience with him, and when he is gone I know that I will miss him. I feel that I am not only taking care of one child but two more, really. Bailee loves Jake and always wants to touch him, well Jake doesn't like Bailee or anyone for that matter touching him. When you have food he is your best friend, in your face waiting for you to drop something. He licks everything and everyone. I am tired of the growling, whining, and barking.

2. I want to go shopping!!!!! I want to go to St Louis and spend lots of money, problem we don't have any. I have never been a big shopping person, I love to go to the mall and look more than anything. But lately I have been making list for things I want and what we need. I have a Sam's list, Micheals list and mall list. After making the list I got depressed because I realized I won't be getting any of this stuff for a while.

3. I realize that I am not a good "stay at home" mom. This is very hard to admit. I just get bored staying at home.

By the way I had a good laugh yesterday! You know that we get the St James Press Extra in the mail. Guess who was on the front page, Jim. I laughed so hard because of the title of the article "School will be 'attacked' and Jim, the resource officer, is smiling. If anyone knows my husband the one thing he hates in life is getting his picture taken. So during the board meeting, which he didn't want to go to, he had to explain what the Active Shooter thing was. And after he was done the paper came up and took his picture. He turns to him and says 'Thanks' well everyone started to laugh, so they took another picture and that is the one they printed.

WiW

I am here to report that I still have 16 lbs to lose. I did walk a couple of times this week. Not much else to say, not feeling very cheery today.

Hoarding

It is Saturday night and my husband is having a guys night. So I actually get to watch what I want on T.V. I was flipping threw and found a show Hoarding on A&E. At first I was like these people are so lazy, but they are not well. This one woman had a rotten pumkin and as they were removing it with a shovel she was picking out the seeds because she wanted to grow another one like it. I hope that these people get the help they need. Well I know now what I will be doing Sunday after church...cleaning out closests and cabinets.

A first in our marriage.

For the first time since we have been married Jim is not coaching football. It is kind of weird. No camp, no afterschool practices, no friday night games(that I am required to go to), and no after game get together. I would love to say that I wish he was coaching but I am glad he isn't. Jim never brings home his "cop" work, but football he brought it home everyday. He took the loses so hard and his mood lasted all weekend or until the Rams played. I do enjoy football, but football here is so different than the football I grew up with. I just don't feel the excitement when the players come out and when they play. I do hope the St James Tigers do well this year. I am sure that I will be attending a couple of games, but one difference is that when the game is over it is over.

Weigh in Wednesday

How did WiW start?

I was inspired by several things. One was my friend Chrissy, she has Measure Me Mondays, I really enjoy reading about her ups and downs and plateaus. It really makes me feel that I am not the only one that struggles in losing weight. The other inspiration is being on Facebook. I went to high school in Texas and since I don't live there anymore I don't run into people that new me back when. But now being on FB I have gotten in touch by so many of my classmates, and with our 20 years class reunion coming up in a year I have gotten very motivated. (Yes I am that old) I have encouraged my best friend to do this with me. So on Wednesdays we get on FB and chat online about how we did or didn't do. We started about a month ago and I have offically lost 5lbs. I have 16lbs. to go. We are meeting at my brothers wedding in November and we plan on celebrating! By having our husbands buy us something. I am thinking earrings. When I reach my goal in November I still have a long way to go to be at my goal weight, but the "experts" say make small goals that you can reach and you will be more successful.

So you are probably wondering what are you doing to lose the weight? Well, I have been exercising, not as regular as I want to but I have been doing it. I have been doing the Firm DVD's they kick it. I really enjoy the weight training and hate cardio. The eating part is the hardest for me. I know what I should and shouldn't eat, but come on like I am never going to have chocolate chip cookies or pizza? I know moderation but that is very hard for me and always will be.

I plan on posting every Wednesday my progress or lack of. If y'all have any suggestions or ideas for a future post let me know.

I Am Back

I am back to the Blogging world. I had been reading all the blogs the last couple of weeks and realized how much I missed it. I don't think I will be blogging everyday but maybe once a week. Since I have been gone a while, you would think a lot has happen. Well not really.

Bailee is now 1 and has no fear. She climbs on everything and everyone. Jake, our dog, is not real happy except when Bailee has food because she loves it when he eats out of her hand. Bailee is no longer taking a bottle, I packed them all up this weekend. I was a little sad because she is no longer a baby and now is a toddler. I do enjoy every new stage a little more than the last. She finally has 6 teeth, four on the top and two on the bottom. She got them all in 2 weeks.

Jim and I are doing well. Nothing to exciting, just keeping our heads above water. We did finish the Financial Peace University class. We both truly enjoyed the class and if you haven't taken it you should. I know people think it is all about getting out of debt, but it is so much more. You learn what type of insurance you should have, how and what to invest your money in and what documents you should have in case something happens to you. A great class for anyone at any stage in there lives, but the earlier you start the better off you will be.

We are going to Texas in November for my brothers wedding. I am so excited about going. This will be our first road trip with Bailee. When we went to Texas for Christmas last year we took the train and she was on the verge of crawling, so I don't know how she will do in a car for 13+ hours in a car seat. Another fabulous adventure!

I am glad to be back. Talk to you soon.