Frustration!

Sometime I hate email, Face Book, chatting or this type of communication. Because I don't think people truly hear how your message is supposed to be heard. They can't hear the tone that the message is to be intended. I just hope that others realize that sometimes our written word come across a lot harsher than we intend it to be. And for this I am sorry.

I hope that I didn't screw up a old/new friendship.

One liners!

Most of y'all know my husband. He is pretty much on the quiet side. But every now and then he comes up with these one liners that make me laugh so hard. For those who don't know him, he has a manly man attitude.

So we have been watching the Olympics. Jim has really got into them. But he doesn't like Men's or Couples Figure Skating. He thinks it is just not right, if you catch my drift.

So last night the announcer guy says,"Couples Ice Dancing in 10 minutes."

Jim responds with "Great I feel my period coming on!"

I apologize if anyone is offend by this, but I busted out laughing and laughed for the rest of the night. I love this side of my husband and I wish it would come out more often.

And please if you see him around PLEASE don't say anything. He will never ever let me blog again!

Best Workout So Far

After taking off Saturday and Sunday, Chrissy and I went running Monday and only got through 2 laps, I was hurting so much that I so wanted to give up on this insane idea of running in a 5K. I have been really struggling with the pain in my calves when I am running. I have researched, talked and watched video about my problem. And everything that I read said that I needed to stretch more. Well I don't like to stretch, so in the mornings I would stretch about 2-3 minutes. (Obviously not enough time)

We decided that we would run on Tuesday in the afternoon, which I was really happy about because that meant I could sleep until 6:30! So I went on with my day as normal. Work a little, Weight Watchers meeting(weigh in was not good), work some more and then home. So around 3:30ish I get a text asking if I really wanted to go? I really did, but I am so tired of the cold and wind that it makes me really not want to go out. But I did! I decided that I would do two laps before Chrissy could come out. So when I was done with the two laps I went to Chrissy's house to wait and while I was there I stretched for like a good 5 maybe 10 minutes. And man I felt like a new woman! I had NO PAIN in my calves. I was so happy and excited. Being able to run with no pain is wonderful. I now need to concentrate on getting my endurance up!

While running the famous "running neighbor" was out running and he talked to us. I think he was really excited to see us out there, and we were excited to run with him. Even though he mention about his brother or brother in-law that started running at the age of 50ish and died because he had clogged arteries. Just a FYI: If I do die while or because I am running please don't say 'told you so'. I am proud that I am getting out there and at least doing it and if I do pass at least I was trying to be healthier.

Anyways it was such a fantastic feeling, I just had to share!

Update

I have been doing really bad on my weight loss journey. I just watched You Tube and someone had a quote "Fail to Plan=Plan to Fail" I have not been keeping track like I should. And I know that tracking is the key to my success. Last Tuesday there wasn't a weigh in because of the weather, I didn't realize how much I enjoy and get inspired by my meetings. I am hoping that since holidays, Super Bowel(aka cheese dip, snack foods day), and Valentines Day(have to have Chocolate Covered Strawberries) is over I won't be distracted and get back into my routine. I love routine!

I have been running though at least 4 days if not more a week. I would love to say that I have been enjoying the running more, but my calves won't let me. I do love the feeling after I am done. I am really trying hard to work through the pain. I have stretched and put Ben Gay on them (sorry Chrissy) but nothing helps. I am hoping that with the weather getting warmer that it might help, wishful thinking I am sure, but it keeps me going. I realize that June is going to be here before I know it and I just don't feel ready. I worst fear was to be last, now it is not being able to finish. I don't want to disappoint anyone and I am so afraid that I will.

I haven't talked about Bailee lately. A special day is coming up Feb. 19th. It will be a year since we went to court for Finalization of Adoption. I don't think we will ever make this date as a day of celebrating, but a day of remembrance of all we went through before and after we had Bailee. Because without going through disappointing fertility treatments we would never had Bailee. Bailee is doing great! She is really talking and trying to say new words. It is funny, how mothers know exactly what there child is saying and others look at the mom for the interpretation. Bailee loves to brush her teeth, more like she likes the taste of the toddler toothpaste, anyways the way she says brush comes out more like someone is clearing there throat than brush. But I know exactly what she wants. I so need to video tape it. She has also gotten a temper. We go to time out at least twice between 4-7 p.m. Bailee and I are going to Texas in March, and I have decided to fly with her. I am super nervous about this. But I will get through it.

A Cure for the Winter Blues

Yes, I have the Winter Blues.

I am tired of the wet, sloppy, muddy ground.

I am tired of the being cold.

I am tired of putting on jackets. (Really hate adding on extra bulk to my bulk that I already have)

I am tired of not seeing the sun.

I am tired of not seeing green grass.

I am tired of it being dark at 5-6.

I am tired of being tired.

I really don't like feeling this way. I am a happy person, but when it comes to this time of year, I am not a person you want to be around. The only thing that is getting me up in the mornings is my running partner Chrissy. (Really proud that I was able to link her page, that is a first for me)

I do want to let y'all know how much Chrissy has helped me over the past month. (I can't believe that it has been a month) I am dealing with a lot of pain in my calves. I don't have shin splits, but my muscles hurt so bad that I feel that they are going to explode during my run. And even though I am struggling I keep going, because of her. When we are running I look over at her and think she is doing a great job, looks like she has been doing this forever. She looks confident, and that she is enjoying it. I want to feel and look like that. I know that she can go a lot faster than what I am going, and even though I tell her if she needs to go faster to go, she doesn't. She is staying by my side. I can't tell you how that encourages me. Knowing that she is staying by my side makes me want to not give up on me or on her. And if she does want to go ahead of me, she can count on me cheering for her and yelling at her not to stop.

Chrissy, I hope that when the day of the race comes that I will be able to keep up with you and if not I am not going to give up because I know that you will be there waiting for me at the finish line.