Mother's Day

I have watied a long time to celebrate my first Mother's day. I am honored to be Bailee's mom. But I am reminded of years past.

After a couple of years of marriage, you are going to get the question, When are y'all going to start having a family? When you struggle with infertility you learn to fight back the tears, put on a fake smile and say we are trying. Every year Mother's Day was a reminder that another year has passed and you have failed. In years past Jim and I would go to church and watch all the mom's and dad's get up and have their children dedicated. I would make it half way threw the ceremony and have to excuse myself. I just couldn't understand why not us. Now this year it is us and I am go excited and overjoyed. But I am reminded that there are a lot of wanna-be moms out there, that will be struggling on Sunday. I pray that they have courage and faith.

What a Week

This has been a very hard week for me. All I can say is that goodness it is over. I know that other mothers have harder weeks than I do, but I am not myself.

Bailee is standing up by herself without needing something to hold on to. She is growing up way too fast. She still doesn't have any teeth. I made her 1 year appt. on July 8, which is my birthday, not really excited about watching my daughter get shots. I think Jimmy will be taking her that day. Bailee also has discovered the bathroom, she enjoys yelling into the bath tub. I guess she likes the echoing.

Pretty boring post sorry about that.

Fun Family Friday 4-24-09

I know that it has been a while since I have written a blog, but really nothing exciting to report.

I had planned earlier in the week to have Fun Friday, Bailee and I where going to go visit a friend and her new baby and then go to the park and have lunch. Well, Jim tells me Thursday that he has off Friday. So I decided to make FF into Fun Family Friday! Jim wanted to mow the grass and Bailee and I went to visit our friend Tina and her new buddle of joy Owen. After he was done mowing we went outside to help him plant some trees that he got on Earth Day. Bailee crawled in the grass, however I don't think she like the feel of the ground on her legs so she started to do the monster crawl. Then we decided to put up the Rams canopy that I had won last year and to bar-b-que. We invited some friends over and just hung outside the rest of the night. After our friends went home we stayed outside a little bit longer just talking and looking at the stars. I also said a little prayer for my friend in Texas, they had Relay for Life tonight. It was a great day to spend outside. It was a simple FF but one of the best!

Conversations?

Is the art of having a conversation lost? I feel that we are hiding behind our computers. With blogs, facebook and now twitter does anyone actually go over to someone elses house and just talk? I know that I have hidden behind some of my post and I am really upset with myself about it. I wanted to start blogging to update family and friends about what is going on with Bailee, and somewhere I have lost sight. I know that it is nice to have an outlet to discuss world or personal issues, but I would enjoy talking to someone else, hearing their voice and getting their point of view.

Texas

Some of y'all might know that I am from the great state of Texas. Here are a few things that I miss:
-hearing George Strait every hour on the radio
-going to Gruene
-going to my Grandparents farm-aka: the country
-going to lunch with Nanny
-going to the rodeo
-the bluebonnets on the side of the road
-picking pecans out of Nanny's yard
-Mexican Food
-my church
-going to Schilliterbahn
-having a tan in the winter
-deer season family reunion
-floating the river
-heat
-the Cotton Eye Joe
-Spurs-the basketball team
-listening to family talk about the old days or about my dad
-my Uncle Al's bar-b-que
-playing horse with Kyle and Brien
-shopping with my mom
-celebrating all holidays with my family
-going out with Michelle and Jon

I am sure that I could be here all night thinking of things I miss these are just a few.

Questions? Do you have the answer?

1. Why is it so hard for some people to except others for who they are?
2. Why do so many children need a good home? Yet to adopt a child is so hard and expensive?
3. Why are people judging others when they don't know them or care to get to know them or their situation?
4. Why are love ones taken away so early in life?
5. Why do we take people for grant it?

These are questions that have been on my mind for a while. I am trying to accept that some questions in life there are no answers. And right now I am struggling with that.

Garage Sale

Well, after many years of saying that I need to have a garage sale I actually did it!! One more thing I can mark off my yearly to-do list. The sale was a huge success!! Not only did I sale all of Bailee's clothes I was able to get rid of a lot of other stuff. I also had the privilege meeting Bethany, I have been following her blog for a long time. It was great to actually hear her voice. I love blogging, but one of the draw backs is that you don't know what the person sounds like. I also would like to thank my mom for helping me out with Bailee. I wouldn't have been able to do it without her.