No distractions

So life without T.V. hasn't been all that bad. So far. Jim and I are watching Band of Brothers and we are talking a lot more. I have started cleaning out the office and going thru drawers and files and throwing it all away. We all sit at the table for dinner which is so nice and relaxing. Last night I went to the basketball game until Bailee fell asleep with was by the 3rd quarter of the J.V. game. She takes these 30-45 minute naps in the afternoon and by 5 or 6 she is out. She then wakes up at 2. I just don't know how to get her to sleep longer in the afternoon? Anyone out there have a suggestions?

The Best Feeling in the World

I never had anything that made me feel so loved, than when Bailee rest her head on my shoulder and she kind of scratches my throat with her nails. I feel at peace and hope that feeling never goes away. I hate putting her in her crib, because I know that those moments are not going to last forever. I just hope for other special moments that will give me the same feeling.

9:37 Tuesday

Okay so Jim has been talking about getting rid of Direct Tv{Cable}. I was really okay with it. Yes I have a handful of shows that I will miss, Jon and Kate Plus 8, Biggest Loser, and my favorite show Friday Night Lights. Direct TV has already airing new episodes of FNL and NBC was going to start airing them starting the new year. So he finally did it. We really can't afford it right now and it was the easiest bill to get rid of. So last night as I was trying to fall asleep, watching Nick at Night, I know laugh it up but it puts me to sleep, the TV went blank. At that moment I was sad but kind of relieved. Now I really have no excuses to not get stuff done. I would sit in front of the boob tube, as my father would say, and watch to be watching. I plan on doing a lot of cleaning out my house and getting ready for the garage sale, reading, and listening to the radio. I kind of want to start a craft project so I plan on digging in my unfinished craft tote to find one. I am really excited that Jim no longer has the excuse of I'll do it later, I am watching the game. So if any of you have any good suggestion on books let me know.

Faith

The secret of making something work in your lives is, first of all, the deep desire to make it work; then the faith and belief that it can work; then to hold that clear definite vision in your consciousness and see it working out step by step, without one doubt or disbelief.
—Eileen Caddy

While reading this I thought of all the things that I wanted to work, and why they didn't. I always told myself to hope for the best, but be prepare for disappointment. Maybe I need to change that. I always have had the desire for things to work, but I can't honestly say that I have always have had faith. I hope that in the future that I can teach Bailee and myself to have faith no matter what.

Vacation Over

Today, is Bailee 6 month checkup. I can't believe that it has been 6 months already. She is getting up on all fours, so crawling is definitly in our near future. The last couple of days she started this thing, she makes this clicking sound with her tongue. I plan on taping it this week, it is so funny. I am also excited because we are finally getting back to our normal lives. Jim and I are going back to work and Bailee gets to see her friends. Actually I think I am more excited to see Bailee's friends than she is. I can't wait to see how big everyone has gotten.

So I have made a list of my to-do's for 2009
1. Clean and keep it clean the office.
2. Have a garage sale.
3. Stay motivated on our debt diet.
4. Eat better.
5. Be a good mom.
I figured that if I at least accomplish number 5 on my list nothing else will matter.

Goodbye 2008

Wow can you believe that another year has gone by. I remember when I was younger I would listen to the adults talk about how time flies and being young I never really understood that. Now I do, I was feeding Bailee this morning and realized that she is getting older and bigger by the minute. So even though 2008 brought me Bailee, I am so looking forward to 2009. I hope that is will be a great year.

I have decided not to make any resolutions this year because I never keep them. And then I get upset that I can't keep a promise to myself. I always say I am going to lose weight. Yeah, like that has happen. So this year, I decided that I am going to write my bucket list for 2009. List will be later. I figured that this way if I give myself more of a to-do list I will be a little more successful. I love crossing thiings off.

So I wish all of you a Happy New Year.

Back From Texas

Well we finally made it back from Texas this morning. We all had a terrific time visiting with my family and friends. Everyone met Bailee and thought she was perfect, which I believe she is, but I am getting concern that it might all go to her head. I don't know if I was with her so much over the last week but she has really grown. She is outgrown the 3-6 month clothes and has discovered her tongue.
We decided to take a train to Texas. The trip was 24 hours. I enjoyed the experience but the customer service on the way to Texas was awful, but coming home they were a little bit nicer. We had a sleeping car, which is basically a 7'X5' room. It had two seats that converted into a bed and a bunk on top. Bailee and I slept together and Jim slept up top. I have never liked the idea sleeping in the same bed with a baby, I just don't trust myself. I am afraid that I would roll over or kick her, so I didn't sleep very well. So on the way to Texas Jim and I went to the dining car, I was holding Bailee and yes my biggest fear came true, I fell. When you go between cars there are two doors that you have to press a button to open each car and while I was pressing the button to the second door I was standing were the two cars are joined. Needless to say my foot went in opposite directions and I was trying so hard to keep upright and keep Bailee as close to me. But I twisted my knee and landed on them, Bailee fell forward a little, scaring her and me more than anything. We are all okay but I was so upset that we went back to the car and I cried a little. The time on the train went by pretty fast, Jim read to me and we took naps. Jim and I don't know if we would take the train again, but I am glad that I got to experience it.
We got back home around 9:30 this morning and I washed all of our clothes, unpacked and took a long restful nap. I hope that everyone had a wonderful Christmas and a safe New Year.