After a lot of thought I am leaving the blogging world behind! I love the friendships and the people I have gotten to know and I cherish them all. I have been feeling like I really can't be my true self on here. I have had to censor myself so much that I am not being honest about who I am, feeling very fake. I don't regret those friendships I have made and hope that those people stay in my life. If I don't ever get to talk or see some of you I wish you all the best!
Goodbye.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Update 8-28-2010
So this week flew by!
Bailee is in love with Mickey Mouse Playhouse! She calls it Mousy Mouse. I have been starting to look at the toy sections for Christmas, to see what to get her. At KMart they have a good selection of MMP items, so I decided it is going to be a Mousy Mouse Christmas! I checked the internet and Bailee came in and saw what I was looking at and started screaming and bull-dozed her way on my lap to see the toys. She got so excited to say the least. So a trip to Toys-R-Us is in my near future!
Last night, Jim and I went to the Salem football game. This is the first Salem game I have ever been to, it was okay, just like any other Friday night game. I can tell he misses coaching!
Today, I am going with some friends to the local Winery's. I am looking forward into going, but I have started a diet last week and I have done so well that I am hoping that I have some will power not to over-indulge. I have slacked big time on my exercising, but I am hoping to get back at it soon! I did stop drinking soda. I have not had a diet coke for over a week, I still miss the fizzy sensation though. So my drink of choice is unsweeten tea.
Well I hope everyone has a great weekend and a great week ahead!
Bailee is in love with Mickey Mouse Playhouse! She calls it Mousy Mouse. I have been starting to look at the toy sections for Christmas, to see what to get her. At KMart they have a good selection of MMP items, so I decided it is going to be a Mousy Mouse Christmas! I checked the internet and Bailee came in and saw what I was looking at and started screaming and bull-dozed her way on my lap to see the toys. She got so excited to say the least. So a trip to Toys-R-Us is in my near future!
Last night, Jim and I went to the Salem football game. This is the first Salem game I have ever been to, it was okay, just like any other Friday night game. I can tell he misses coaching!
Today, I am going with some friends to the local Winery's. I am looking forward into going, but I have started a diet last week and I have done so well that I am hoping that I have some will power not to over-indulge. I have slacked big time on my exercising, but I am hoping to get back at it soon! I did stop drinking soda. I have not had a diet coke for over a week, I still miss the fizzy sensation though. So my drink of choice is unsweeten tea.
Well I hope everyone has a great weekend and a great week ahead!
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Being an officers wife
Being a police officers wife or really a wife to any emergency personal is hard and frustrating, but I have excepted this way of life. But there is one thing I can't take anymore!
THE RADIO!
We have to sleep with it on! Most of the time I sleep right through it, no problems! But sometimes I wake up a bazillion times, especially during storms and the someone is on that radio non-stop. And of course, being the noisy person I am I have to listen and find out who got pulled over, who was in an accident or what alarm is going off. And then when no one is talking for 10 minutes I finally start drifting off and bam someone is back on! And they don't speak normal, they speak in numeric code half of the time. And yes after 12 years I finally learn some of the codes, but come on just say yes or no! Do you really need numbers for that? (Those are the ones I get confused on) Then you never find out what happen in the end. I mean did the officer write them a ticket, was there someone hurt in the accident, or did they catch the person sitting off the alarms? Really it is like reading a great mystery novel and the last 2 chapters are missing!
And then when you are trying to have a conversation with him while on duty, you never get there full attention. Which can work in my favor! But most of the time it is frustrating and no he won't turn it down while I am talking to him.
So as you can probably tell I didn't get enough sleep last night and I had to write out my frustration this morning.
THE RADIO!
We have to sleep with it on! Most of the time I sleep right through it, no problems! But sometimes I wake up a bazillion times, especially during storms and the someone is on that radio non-stop. And of course, being the noisy person I am I have to listen and find out who got pulled over, who was in an accident or what alarm is going off. And then when no one is talking for 10 minutes I finally start drifting off and bam someone is back on! And they don't speak normal, they speak in numeric code half of the time. And yes after 12 years I finally learn some of the codes, but come on just say yes or no! Do you really need numbers for that? (Those are the ones I get confused on) Then you never find out what happen in the end. I mean did the officer write them a ticket, was there someone hurt in the accident, or did they catch the person sitting off the alarms? Really it is like reading a great mystery novel and the last 2 chapters are missing!
And then when you are trying to have a conversation with him while on duty, you never get there full attention. Which can work in my favor! But most of the time it is frustrating and no he won't turn it down while I am talking to him.
So as you can probably tell I didn't get enough sleep last night and I had to write out my frustration this morning.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
8/19/2010
I didn't realize how long it had been since I last posted? Anyways, it has been pretty uneventful here in Andersonville.
I am excited for some friends of ours. They had a rough couple of months but things are looking up for them. It amazes me how things work out. I am also excited that some of our other friends are going to be in town next month. We haven't seen each other in over a year! I love it when we get together.
My exercising has been on the back burner. I have not been running in over a week. I just can't get myself out of bed. I hope to find my enthusiasm for running again very soon. I know a lot of it has to do with it being so hot. So come on cooler weather! I wanted to go back to WW in July, well it doesn't look like I will be back until the end of Sept. I am just having a hard time justifying the money for a weigh in right now. I really wish there was a gym in town. I would love to join the Centre, but I am not 100% confident that I will go enough every week to get my money out of it. I keep looking for some inspiration, so if anyone has any let me know!
Bailee is doing great! She is talking more and more. She loves Mickey Mouse Playhouse. We have to watch at least two episodes a day if not more. The babysitter is starting to work with the 3-4 year olds on letters, numbers, and shapes. And she has Bailee sit with them and draw and listen. She brought home her paperwork from the week and it made me a little sad, my baby isn't a baby. She loves being called a 'big girl'. I wish we could have another child? But if it doesn't happen we are blessed to have Bailee.
Well that is all I got! I hope that everyone has a great weekend!
I am excited for some friends of ours. They had a rough couple of months but things are looking up for them. It amazes me how things work out. I am also excited that some of our other friends are going to be in town next month. We haven't seen each other in over a year! I love it when we get together.
My exercising has been on the back burner. I have not been running in over a week. I just can't get myself out of bed. I hope to find my enthusiasm for running again very soon. I know a lot of it has to do with it being so hot. So come on cooler weather! I wanted to go back to WW in July, well it doesn't look like I will be back until the end of Sept. I am just having a hard time justifying the money for a weigh in right now. I really wish there was a gym in town. I would love to join the Centre, but I am not 100% confident that I will go enough every week to get my money out of it. I keep looking for some inspiration, so if anyone has any let me know!
Bailee is doing great! She is talking more and more. She loves Mickey Mouse Playhouse. We have to watch at least two episodes a day if not more. The babysitter is starting to work with the 3-4 year olds on letters, numbers, and shapes. And she has Bailee sit with them and draw and listen. She brought home her paperwork from the week and it made me a little sad, my baby isn't a baby. She loves being called a 'big girl'. I wish we could have another child? But if it doesn't happen we are blessed to have Bailee.
Well that is all I got! I hope that everyone has a great weekend!
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Update 8-8
All I have to say WOW what a week.
I had a rollercoaster of emotions this week. I had such an emotional day Tuesday, I just started talking to someone and started crying my eyes out. Then Wednesday I was fine, nothing bothered me. Then Thursday, was the bus accident. And I cried all day. And today I have been crying off and on all day for various reasons. Poor Jim, he is really tired of the unstable wife thing.
On Saturday, I started cooking breakfast eggs and bacon. And I had had enough! Of my frying pan. Lets just say if you want 2 eggs I have to make 3 because some much sticks to my non-stick pan you end up with 1.5 eggs. So I did research on frying pans and decided that I have to get one today.
So I went to Washington. When I was driving there I started to think of the Band members going down the road and having a great time on the buses, not having a care in the world. I thought about my own experiences with bus trips. I started getting nervous and scared and I started to cry. Those trips for the kids will never be the same.
After 2 hours of deciding which pan I wanted and how much I was willing to pay I finally got one and I love it!
I am sorry that this post is a little all over the place but that is how I am feeling at the moment.
I had a rollercoaster of emotions this week. I had such an emotional day Tuesday, I just started talking to someone and started crying my eyes out. Then Wednesday I was fine, nothing bothered me. Then Thursday, was the bus accident. And I cried all day. And today I have been crying off and on all day for various reasons. Poor Jim, he is really tired of the unstable wife thing.
On Saturday, I started cooking breakfast eggs and bacon. And I had had enough! Of my frying pan. Lets just say if you want 2 eggs I have to make 3 because some much sticks to my non-stick pan you end up with 1.5 eggs. So I did research on frying pans and decided that I have to get one today.
So I went to Washington. When I was driving there I started to think of the Band members going down the road and having a great time on the buses, not having a care in the world. I thought about my own experiences with bus trips. I started getting nervous and scared and I started to cry. Those trips for the kids will never be the same.
After 2 hours of deciding which pan I wanted and how much I was willing to pay I finally got one and I love it!
I am sorry that this post is a little all over the place but that is how I am feeling at the moment.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Update 7-30-2010
I had a great week! Well, anything would be great compared to last week.
Well like I had mention in my last update post, my life change took a huge leap! I got my transcripts back and I have well over the required 60 hours, so I don’t have to take any college courses. I am not exactly sure if I am going to like being in a school for 7-8 hours a day, so I am going to sub to see if the school thing is for me. I have decided that I am going to keep my job that I have now, due to the fact that it covers Bailee and I’s insurance, and it is still a steady income. I am applying for sub jobs in St James and maybe Cuba? We will see.
Jim and I had a date night Tuesday! I really wanted some BBQ, but we ended up at Applebee’s instead. I just really like the steak with the shrimp and cheese on top. I also had an alcoholic beverage, Jim just laughed at me because I was light headed after one drink. We took the back roads home and just talked it exactly what I needed. Husband and wife time!
So I guess the last thing I need to talk about is my running or the lack of. I did run twice this week. I set my alarm for 5:10 every morning but I can’t get out of bed, which is very unusual for me. I am a morning person! Anyways, Sunday is August 1st the beginning of a new month and a new start for me. I found this great idea from another blog. I got a calendar page with a scene of the beach on it and for everyday I exercise I put a sticker on that day. I love this idea, even though it might be a little corny. One because the beach theme calendar page reminds me that the next time I go on a cruise I want to be skinnier than I am now. Two, it is a great way to visualize what I have accomplished for the month. I also found a motivational calendar too that I printed out. I plan on putting one up in the bathroom and kitchen. I also hope to talk to a trainer in the next few weeks? We will have to see how the money situation is on that one.
I hope that everyone has a great weekend! Talk to you soon.
Well like I had mention in my last update post, my life change took a huge leap! I got my transcripts back and I have well over the required 60 hours, so I don’t have to take any college courses. I am not exactly sure if I am going to like being in a school for 7-8 hours a day, so I am going to sub to see if the school thing is for me. I have decided that I am going to keep my job that I have now, due to the fact that it covers Bailee and I’s insurance, and it is still a steady income. I am applying for sub jobs in St James and maybe Cuba? We will see.
Jim and I had a date night Tuesday! I really wanted some BBQ, but we ended up at Applebee’s instead. I just really like the steak with the shrimp and cheese on top. I also had an alcoholic beverage, Jim just laughed at me because I was light headed after one drink. We took the back roads home and just talked it exactly what I needed. Husband and wife time!
So I guess the last thing I need to talk about is my running or the lack of. I did run twice this week. I set my alarm for 5:10 every morning but I can’t get out of bed, which is very unusual for me. I am a morning person! Anyways, Sunday is August 1st the beginning of a new month and a new start for me. I found this great idea from another blog. I got a calendar page with a scene of the beach on it and for everyday I exercise I put a sticker on that day. I love this idea, even though it might be a little corny. One because the beach theme calendar page reminds me that the next time I go on a cruise I want to be skinnier than I am now. Two, it is a great way to visualize what I have accomplished for the month. I also found a motivational calendar too that I printed out. I plan on putting one up in the bathroom and kitchen. I also hope to talk to a trainer in the next few weeks? We will have to see how the money situation is on that one.
I hope that everyone has a great weekend! Talk to you soon.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Playing the "Do you know Who I am?" card
Living in a small town I have noticed several things. One of the major ones is that certain last names have weight in a town. How they got that way I have no idea, I am sure it was all established many, many years ago before I got here. I know that some get it for what they have done for the town, what jobs they might have in the town and others what trouble they have caused.
Being that my husband is now the Chief of Police, this has become a sore subject with me. If I would get pulled over for speeding,which I have and have gotten a ticket recently and let's face it I do have a lead foot at times, I would totally be fine if a police officer pulled me over. They are doing there job. When they pull me over and realize that my husband is there boss, do I expect to get out of the ticket? NO! In fact, my husband has told them if they see me speeding to pull me over and give me a ticket. I would NEVER say, "Do you know who I am?" Police officers are trained to not to profile people, but to stop people for there actions if being unlawful.
Recently, there are new officers in town. They also have no idea who is who in this town and I think that is great! They will and have pulled people over not because who they are, but because they were breaking the law. I applaud them! When certain people get pulled over and use the line,"Do you know who I am?" I think it is great when the officer says, "Nope" and continue on with there job letting them know why they were pulled over. It amazes me that these people think they are above the law. That they can speed through town and then complain about the speeding down main street! Really, I don't get it.
If you think that you are so great that you have to flaunt who you are, shouldn't you be the one to show a good example to other citizens in this town?
Being that my husband is now the Chief of Police, this has become a sore subject with me. If I would get pulled over for speeding,which I have and have gotten a ticket recently and let's face it I do have a lead foot at times, I would totally be fine if a police officer pulled me over. They are doing there job. When they pull me over and realize that my husband is there boss, do I expect to get out of the ticket? NO! In fact, my husband has told them if they see me speeding to pull me over and give me a ticket. I would NEVER say, "Do you know who I am?" Police officers are trained to not to profile people, but to stop people for there actions if being unlawful.
Recently, there are new officers in town. They also have no idea who is who in this town and I think that is great! They will and have pulled people over not because who they are, but because they were breaking the law. I applaud them! When certain people get pulled over and use the line,"Do you know who I am?" I think it is great when the officer says, "Nope" and continue on with there job letting them know why they were pulled over. It amazes me that these people think they are above the law. That they can speed through town and then complain about the speeding down main street! Really, I don't get it.
If you think that you are so great that you have to flaunt who you are, shouldn't you be the one to show a good example to other citizens in this town?
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Update 7-20-2010
So not much to report. I did buy me something with the $50 I bought some Scentsy at Chrissy party. I really can't wait to get it.
I have decided to make another life change. I have decided to get out of the retail game and become a Teachers Aide. I have a few hurdles to jump but nothing I can't handle. I don't have the 60 hours so I have to go back to college and get the rest of my hours. I have always had a soft spot for special need kids. So I would love to be an Aide in those classes. I got the ball rolling this week on getting to my goal.
This is a special week of remembrance for me. My dad died 9 years ago. I won't bore you with all the details. I just wish I could have seen his face when he saw Bailee for the first time.
Anyways, on the exercising and healthy front not a great week. I did run last week 4 days and it looks like this week will be 4 days. I skipped this morning. Bailee woke up at 11 and had a 101 temp. By the morning it was normal, but really worried Jim and me.
So that is it!
I have decided to make another life change. I have decided to get out of the retail game and become a Teachers Aide. I have a few hurdles to jump but nothing I can't handle. I don't have the 60 hours so I have to go back to college and get the rest of my hours. I have always had a soft spot for special need kids. So I would love to be an Aide in those classes. I got the ball rolling this week on getting to my goal.
This is a special week of remembrance for me. My dad died 9 years ago. I won't bore you with all the details. I just wish I could have seen his face when he saw Bailee for the first time.
Anyways, on the exercising and healthy front not a great week. I did run last week 4 days and it looks like this week will be 4 days. I skipped this morning. Bailee woke up at 11 and had a 101 temp. By the morning it was normal, but really worried Jim and me.
So that is it!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
What would you buy?
I got some birthday money! And I am not sure what to get? I got $50, I am thinking about getting something just for me, like a outfit or perfume, but then I really could use a new frying pan. So I am taking suggestions? Practical or not?
Friday, July 9, 2010
July 9, 2010
So another birthday has come and gone. But this year was different for a couple of reasons.
I gave myself a Birthday Party. I asked a couple of friends to go with me to the Blue Beagle in Rolla and for pie afterwards. I haven't been out with friends in a very long time. We had a great time. For those who don't know the Blue Beagle is a paint your own ceramics store. They had some really great pieces, I paints 3 small plates. I wanted to start out small, because I am not an artist. But now I wish I would have done another piece, oh well guess I will be going back. After, we left the BB we went to Slice of Pie. Now for those that aren't in the area, I am sorry. Because you are missing the best pie ever! Thank goodness they didn't run out of French Silk. I really had a great time, sitting there chatting about everything under the sun. And enjoying the company of friends. I really hope that we can do this on a more regular basis.
This year I weigh less than I did last year. This has never ever happen to me. It is a good feeling, however I am still not satisfied and lets face it I never will be. I did run twice this week and I feel pretty good about it. I realized that as much as I hate the act of doing it I so enjoy the after effect it has on me. And the fact the cool shower afterwards is so relaxing. I was going to run this morning but it is raining so I guess I will be back at it Monday. I am excited to say the my husband is starting to run again. I think I finally got to him! About time I was starting to give up. Having him on board keeps me going, because I am not ever going to be the bigger one in this marriage.
Well, I hope that everyone had a great week and has a terrific weekend! By the way, for those who live in town, go to the farmers market and get some Amish sourdough bread. OMG! Jim went last week and got some, he will be going back this week and every week. And you are helping out local people! It is a good thing. (Had a Martha Stewart moment)
I gave myself a Birthday Party. I asked a couple of friends to go with me to the Blue Beagle in Rolla and for pie afterwards. I haven't been out with friends in a very long time. We had a great time. For those who don't know the Blue Beagle is a paint your own ceramics store. They had some really great pieces, I paints 3 small plates. I wanted to start out small, because I am not an artist. But now I wish I would have done another piece, oh well guess I will be going back. After, we left the BB we went to Slice of Pie. Now for those that aren't in the area, I am sorry. Because you are missing the best pie ever! Thank goodness they didn't run out of French Silk. I really had a great time, sitting there chatting about everything under the sun. And enjoying the company of friends. I really hope that we can do this on a more regular basis.
This year I weigh less than I did last year. This has never ever happen to me. It is a good feeling, however I am still not satisfied and lets face it I never will be. I did run twice this week and I feel pretty good about it. I realized that as much as I hate the act of doing it I so enjoy the after effect it has on me. And the fact the cool shower afterwards is so relaxing. I was going to run this morning but it is raining so I guess I will be back at it Monday. I am excited to say the my husband is starting to run again. I think I finally got to him! About time I was starting to give up. Having him on board keeps me going, because I am not ever going to be the bigger one in this marriage.
Well, I hope that everyone had a great week and has a terrific weekend! By the way, for those who live in town, go to the farmers market and get some Amish sourdough bread. OMG! Jim went last week and got some, he will be going back this week and every week. And you are helping out local people! It is a good thing. (Had a Martha Stewart moment)
Friday, July 2, 2010
July 2-2010
I know that I haven't posted in a very long time, but I have been on a little R and R. Jim had a conference at the lake, so Bailee, my Mom and I 
joined him. My mom got her own room, which was great Bailee slept with her the majority of the time. It was great to wake up and take your time getting ready, how I cherished that but I also missed the snuggle time in the morning with my little girl. Mom's room was right across the street from the pool, so we spent 2 days in the pool, so relaxing. Overall, it was a great trip! Can't wait to go next year.
joined him. My mom got her own room, which was great Bailee slept with her the majority of the time. It was great to wake up and take your time getting ready, how I cherished that but I also missed the snuggle time in the morning with my little girl. Mom's room was right across the street from the pool, so we spent 2 days in the pool, so relaxing. Overall, it was a great trip! Can't wait to go next year.Bailee turned 2!
It truly amazes me that1. I have a daughter
2. She has really been a easy baby/toddler
3. She is talking so much more just in the past week
4. That I get to be her mom
We went to take the annual Birthday photos, and for a special surprise I got Jim to take a family picture! My husband doesn't like to get his photo taken at all so we were especially excited. And I even got coordinating shirts.(thanks Tina)
I have not run in almost 2 weeks. I do plan on getting back to it on Monday. I can't say that I really missed running, but I miss not being able to eat what I want and having the scale go up! My friend from High School called me today and reminded me that we have a little over a year before my 20 year reunion. So I have to get at it. I just hope that when I start up again that I am not starting totally over, I am so scared that I am not even going to make .5 mile.
I do hope that everyone has a great and safe 4th of July!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
After the Race
So last week, after the race I ran everyday. I ran/jog at least a mile. I took off Saturday and Sunday, Monday came and I got up at my normal time, but I didn't run. All day I felt bad! I felt huge, lazy, insecure, and ugly. So this morning Jake, our dog had to go out at 4:45 this morning, so I let him out and after doing my routine (turning on the computer, checking email, facebook and blogs) I decided that I have to run! No matter what! So I ran my mile. I could so tell that taking an extra day off is not good. While I was running I was thinking, Kim really a half marathon? You are not going to do that! Stop kidding yourself. I have lost my fire. I am hoping that even though I am not fired up, that by running at least a mile each week day I can regain my spark. I hate that I lose interest or start thinking negatively about myself.
On a lighter note, Bailee is turning two! I can't believe it. When you ask her how old is she going to be? She says 2 and tries to get her fingers to show two. I am not having a party for her, I know shocking. Jim and I talked and decided that since we are going to the Lake for 4 days, we can celebrate it there. We plan on taking her to the Waterpark and Miner Mikes (not 100% sure if it age appropriate but we are going to try) We just think that even though every birthday is a huge milestone, we don't have to have a huge party this year. I am truly looking forward to our trip to the lake and spending time with all the people I love. And just getting out of this town!
On a lighter note, Bailee is turning two! I can't believe it. When you ask her how old is she going to be? She says 2 and tries to get her fingers to show two. I am not having a party for her, I know shocking. Jim and I talked and decided that since we are going to the Lake for 4 days, we can celebrate it there. We plan on taking her to the Waterpark and Miner Mikes (not 100% sure if it age appropriate but we are going to try) We just think that even though every birthday is a huge milestone, we don't have to have a huge party this year. I am truly looking forward to our trip to the lake and spending time with all the people I love. And just getting out of this town!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Good Morning!
Bailee had a sleep over at Grammies, and I don't exercise on Saturdays so I was able to sleep until 7:00 this morning! I haven't done that in a long time. But I woke up with a stuffy nose. I hate that you have to turn your head constantly all night.
Anyways I have been on a reorganization/ cleaning spree! Last Friday I cleaned zone 1 of the garage, yes my garage got so overwhelming that I had to divide it up in zones. I have 4 zones and I am hoping that I will start zone 3 today. What happen with zone 2, well I need some supplies for it and with funds a little low I have to skip it for now! I also hope to clean Bailee's room, while she is gone. Bailee's room is so bad that Chrissy came over and went in there and started picking it up, I told her to drop the books and back away from the mess. I was a little embarrassed but you know I didn't really care. I am not saying that I want my daughters room to look like a disaster, especially when she gets older. I really need to step it up a notch and teach her how to pick up and put up! I am just having this battle that I am tired of picking up after other adults (did you see how I didn't mention someone's name) I really don't mind somethings, like shoes, keys, sunglasses, or the watch. But I mean really when it is trash throw it away! I even bought a trash can when you step on it the lid comes up for you! Okay enough about that. I was wondering what are your organization/cleaning tips?
Anyways I have been on a reorganization/ cleaning spree! Last Friday I cleaned zone 1 of the garage, yes my garage got so overwhelming that I had to divide it up in zones. I have 4 zones and I am hoping that I will start zone 3 today. What happen with zone 2, well I need some supplies for it and with funds a little low I have to skip it for now! I also hope to clean Bailee's room, while she is gone. Bailee's room is so bad that Chrissy came over and went in there and started picking it up, I told her to drop the books and back away from the mess. I was a little embarrassed but you know I didn't really care. I am not saying that I want my daughters room to look like a disaster, especially when she gets older. I really need to step it up a notch and teach her how to pick up and put up! I am just having this battle that I am tired of picking up after other adults (did you see how I didn't mention someone's name) I really don't mind somethings, like shoes, keys, sunglasses, or the watch. But I mean really when it is trash throw it away! I even bought a trash can when you step on it the lid comes up for you! Okay enough about that. I was wondering what are your organization/cleaning tips?
Thursday, June 17, 2010
What have I done for me lately?
What I have done for me is, I ran a 5K!
Last Saturday I got up at 4:30 am got ready and Chrissy Adams and I went to St Louis. I won't bore you with all the details, so here are the highlights!
After getting our shirts and pictures taken we headed to the starting line. They block all the runner together so that we can pass through the gate that times us. By the way, technology is truly amazes me. On the racing bib is a thing that looks like double sided tape and that is what tracked us at the start and finish line.
Anyways, back to the starting line, we got there and there was no one that looked like me! I am truly freaking out! On the verge of tears I mean all these people are skinny and are a true runner-then I saw her! She was my target! (Really hope that I don't offend anyone and if I do I am sorry) She was a very curvaceous woman, about my age maybe a little older. I had a goal and that was to beat her. So the race began and I came up on her and passed her and never looked back. My first challenge was complete, I do wish I had remembered her number, but anyways I felt great next challenge the hill!
Chrissy and I trained for this around the neighborhood, no hills, no steep inclines nice and level. Remember, when training add a hill! I had to get up this hill and I did. Last challenge to keep running and don't stop! Okay I did stop running for all of 2 minutes then I saw the finish line. And I ran towards the gate after crossing the gate I was so relieved. Like a weight was lifted off my shoulders, and I was still alive!
Chrissy and I sat under a tree and drank water and cooled off. I do regret that I didn't experience the true meaning of this day. I was there focusing on running and nothing else. To me accomplishing this was my fight. On Sunday morning I did wake up and watch the highlights of that day, and that is when the emotions of that day hit. All those women fighting Breast Cancer.
The rest of Sunday I was in pain. I felt muscles that I didn't know I had. I did take it very easy Sunday and reflected on my adventure of running. I realize many things. I realize that even though I can jog it isn't the same as running. I realize that I can do better! And be better! I don't want to be a one time race runner that I want to do more. And in doing so I have to raise my minium no more a mile and that is okay. I HAVE TO DO MORE TO GET MORE! My new motto. I have to be the complete package. I can't just do one and not another, I have to do both eating better and exercising. So what am I going to do about this.
As you know I had been going to Weight Watchers, and even though I did lose weight I didn't stay on program. Yes, I am being honest, I didn't keep track no one ever looked at my food journal so I figured if no one sees what I have eaten then did I really eat it? I know pretty stupid, but if you have a weight problem I think you might have an idea what I am saying. So I plan on going back to Weight Watchers first week of July and talking to the leader. And even if I have to pay her extra I have to have her check my food journal, it is the only way I will stay with it and be held accountable. I am also challenging my fellow bloggers and friends, shoot me an email or comment and ask me about it. I realized that the more people ask me about my eating the better I do. I don't think I will get to my birthday goal, and that is okay. But I will be a lot healthier at 37 then I was the past 20 something years.
I also want to thank everyone for your nice comments and encouraging words! You have kept me going and I hope that in a small way I can do the same. I did delete my blog for a while because I didn't feel that I had anything to say, but I realize that I do. Thanks, for listening and caring.
Last Saturday I got up at 4:30 am got ready and Chrissy Adams and I went to St Louis. I won't bore you with all the details, so here are the highlights!
After getting our shirts and pictures taken we headed to the starting line. They block all the runner together so that we can pass through the gate that times us. By the way, technology is truly amazes me. On the racing bib is a thing that looks like double sided tape and that is what tracked us at the start and finish line.
Anyways, back to the starting line, we got there and there was no one that looked like me! I am truly freaking out! On the verge of tears I mean all these people are skinny and are a true runner-then I saw her! She was my target! (Really hope that I don't offend anyone and if I do I am sorry) She was a very curvaceous woman, about my age maybe a little older. I had a goal and that was to beat her. So the race began and I came up on her and passed her and never looked back. My first challenge was complete, I do wish I had remembered her number, but anyways I felt great next challenge the hill!
Chrissy and I trained for this around the neighborhood, no hills, no steep inclines nice and level. Remember, when training add a hill! I had to get up this hill and I did. Last challenge to keep running and don't stop! Okay I did stop running for all of 2 minutes then I saw the finish line. And I ran towards the gate after crossing the gate I was so relieved. Like a weight was lifted off my shoulders, and I was still alive!
Chrissy and I sat under a tree and drank water and cooled off. I do regret that I didn't experience the true meaning of this day. I was there focusing on running and nothing else. To me accomplishing this was my fight. On Sunday morning I did wake up and watch the highlights of that day, and that is when the emotions of that day hit. All those women fighting Breast Cancer.
The rest of Sunday I was in pain. I felt muscles that I didn't know I had. I did take it very easy Sunday and reflected on my adventure of running. I realize many things. I realize that even though I can jog it isn't the same as running. I realize that I can do better! And be better! I don't want to be a one time race runner that I want to do more. And in doing so I have to raise my minium no more a mile and that is okay. I HAVE TO DO MORE TO GET MORE! My new motto. I have to be the complete package. I can't just do one and not another, I have to do both eating better and exercising. So what am I going to do about this.
As you know I had been going to Weight Watchers, and even though I did lose weight I didn't stay on program. Yes, I am being honest, I didn't keep track no one ever looked at my food journal so I figured if no one sees what I have eaten then did I really eat it? I know pretty stupid, but if you have a weight problem I think you might have an idea what I am saying. So I plan on going back to Weight Watchers first week of July and talking to the leader. And even if I have to pay her extra I have to have her check my food journal, it is the only way I will stay with it and be held accountable. I am also challenging my fellow bloggers and friends, shoot me an email or comment and ask me about it. I realized that the more people ask me about my eating the better I do. I don't think I will get to my birthday goal, and that is okay. But I will be a lot healthier at 37 then I was the past 20 something years.
I also want to thank everyone for your nice comments and encouraging words! You have kept me going and I hope that in a small way I can do the same. I did delete my blog for a while because I didn't feel that I had anything to say, but I realize that I do. Thanks, for listening and caring.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
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Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Update 5-25
I haven't felt inspired to write anything in a while and really I don't now, but I am tired at looking at my old post.
Anyways I did want to update on the running. I have slacked a little, I can't tell you the last time I ran over 2 miles, but I am still running 5 days a week at least a mile. My weight is still up and down but I am not stressing over it. I am still less, a lot less then when I started. I am not obsessed on getting on the scale 10 times a day. I have actually skipped days in weighing myself, which is really huge for me. Today I have a weigh in at WW. I have decided that since I am not following the program 100% that I am going to go every other week. I really love the meetings, it really makes me think about my relationship with food. And it will save some money!
I am thinking about bringing a 5K to St. James, during the Sip 'n Savor? What do y'all think? Some think it is a little contradicting, and I see there point, but I think it would draw more people to the 5K? Let me know your thoughts?
So that is all I have for now. I hope that everyone is doing great and enjoying the start to summer!
Anyways I did want to update on the running. I have slacked a little, I can't tell you the last time I ran over 2 miles, but I am still running 5 days a week at least a mile. My weight is still up and down but I am not stressing over it. I am still less, a lot less then when I started. I am not obsessed on getting on the scale 10 times a day. I have actually skipped days in weighing myself, which is really huge for me. Today I have a weigh in at WW. I have decided that since I am not following the program 100% that I am going to go every other week. I really love the meetings, it really makes me think about my relationship with food. And it will save some money!
I am thinking about bringing a 5K to St. James, during the Sip 'n Savor? What do y'all think? Some think it is a little contradicting, and I see there point, but I think it would draw more people to the 5K? Let me know your thoughts?
So that is all I have for now. I hope that everyone is doing great and enjoying the start to summer!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
The Best Mother's Day Gift
I know that my husband is not great at getting me gifts and I have accepted that. And I know that this Mother's Day we don't have any money to go get me anything and that is fine. So today when I went to pick up Bailee from the babysitter I was so surprised to receive this. It brought me to tears. You see you can't buy this at a store, so in my eyes it is the best gift ever!
In case you can't read the poem it says:
Sometimes you get discouraged
Because I am so small
And always leave my fingerprints
On furniture and walls
But every day I'm growing
I'll be grown up some day
But all these tiny fingerprints
Will surely fade away.
So here is a final fingerprint
Just so you can recall
Exactly how my fingers looked
When I was very small.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Toy Story 3 preview
I know two post in one day! But I saw and I am so excited that it is almost here! The first movie that Jim and I watched was Toy Story at my apartment. Man that seems like forever ago. Anyways I thought y'all would enjoy watching this clip.
Milestone Reached
When I started on my losing weight kick, it wasn't only about my weight I wanted to teach and show Bailee how to eat and be healthier. Well, today I went to my meeting and I have officially completed one of my goals. I wanted to conquer this goal before I went to Texas, but I didn't. Instead of thinking that I had failed I kept on going, knowing that I will get there. I am proud to say that I have officially lost 20 lbs. starting at my heaviest. And I have a 0 in the middle of my number. My ultimate goal is to have a 1 at the beginning of my number by my birthday! And I honestly can't see how I can't achieve it by July!
I am still running, however I have been sick with allergies and haven't run in 5 days. I am hoping to get back to it by the end of the week. The 5k is going to be here before I know it!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Friendships??
I am having a hard time being someones friend. I know that she is going been going through hard times, but I feel that she is just reaching out to me because of who my husband is and she needs a new person to listen. Now, please don't get me wrong. I don't mind when people wants me to listen to there problems, but don't just contact me only when you have drama in your life. I want to be their friend during the good and bad times. Not just during the bad.
So does this make me a bad person, that I feel this way?
I have had a hard time making friends here in Missouri. And the handful of friends that I do have I cherish! I hope that they know that I would do anything for them.
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