So last week, after the race I ran everyday. I ran/jog at least a mile. I took off Saturday and Sunday, Monday came and I got up at my normal time, but I didn't run. All day I felt bad! I felt huge, lazy, insecure, and ugly. So this morning Jake, our dog had to go out at 4:45 this morning, so I let him out and after doing my routine (turning on the computer, checking email, facebook and blogs) I decided that I have to run! No matter what! So I ran my mile. I could so tell that taking an extra day off is not good. While I was running I was thinking, Kim really a half marathon? You are not going to do that! Stop kidding yourself. I have lost my fire. I am hoping that even though I am not fired up, that by running at least a mile each week day I can regain my spark. I hate that I lose interest or start thinking negatively about myself.
On a lighter note, Bailee is turning two! I can't believe it. When you ask her how old is she going to be? She says 2 and tries to get her fingers to show two. I am not having a party for her, I know shocking. Jim and I talked and decided that since we are going to the Lake for 4 days, we can celebrate it there. We plan on taking her to the Waterpark and Miner Mikes (not 100% sure if it age appropriate but we are going to try) We just think that even though every birthday is a huge milestone, we don't have to have a huge party this year. I am truly looking forward to our trip to the lake and spending time with all the people I love. And just getting out of this town!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Good Morning!
Bailee had a sleep over at Grammies, and I don't exercise on Saturdays so I was able to sleep until 7:00 this morning! I haven't done that in a long time. But I woke up with a stuffy nose. I hate that you have to turn your head constantly all night.
Anyways I have been on a reorganization/ cleaning spree! Last Friday I cleaned zone 1 of the garage, yes my garage got so overwhelming that I had to divide it up in zones. I have 4 zones and I am hoping that I will start zone 3 today. What happen with zone 2, well I need some supplies for it and with funds a little low I have to skip it for now! I also hope to clean Bailee's room, while she is gone. Bailee's room is so bad that Chrissy came over and went in there and started picking it up, I told her to drop the books and back away from the mess. I was a little embarrassed but you know I didn't really care. I am not saying that I want my daughters room to look like a disaster, especially when she gets older. I really need to step it up a notch and teach her how to pick up and put up! I am just having this battle that I am tired of picking up after other adults (did you see how I didn't mention someone's name) I really don't mind somethings, like shoes, keys, sunglasses, or the watch. But I mean really when it is trash throw it away! I even bought a trash can when you step on it the lid comes up for you! Okay enough about that. I was wondering what are your organization/cleaning tips?
Anyways I have been on a reorganization/ cleaning spree! Last Friday I cleaned zone 1 of the garage, yes my garage got so overwhelming that I had to divide it up in zones. I have 4 zones and I am hoping that I will start zone 3 today. What happen with zone 2, well I need some supplies for it and with funds a little low I have to skip it for now! I also hope to clean Bailee's room, while she is gone. Bailee's room is so bad that Chrissy came over and went in there and started picking it up, I told her to drop the books and back away from the mess. I was a little embarrassed but you know I didn't really care. I am not saying that I want my daughters room to look like a disaster, especially when she gets older. I really need to step it up a notch and teach her how to pick up and put up! I am just having this battle that I am tired of picking up after other adults (did you see how I didn't mention someone's name) I really don't mind somethings, like shoes, keys, sunglasses, or the watch. But I mean really when it is trash throw it away! I even bought a trash can when you step on it the lid comes up for you! Okay enough about that. I was wondering what are your organization/cleaning tips?
Thursday, June 17, 2010
What have I done for me lately?
What I have done for me is, I ran a 5K!
Last Saturday I got up at 4:30 am got ready and Chrissy Adams and I went to St Louis. I won't bore you with all the details, so here are the highlights!
After getting our shirts and pictures taken we headed to the starting line. They block all the runner together so that we can pass through the gate that times us. By the way, technology is truly amazes me. On the racing bib is a thing that looks like double sided tape and that is what tracked us at the start and finish line.
Anyways, back to the starting line, we got there and there was no one that looked like me! I am truly freaking out! On the verge of tears I mean all these people are skinny and are a true runner-then I saw her! She was my target! (Really hope that I don't offend anyone and if I do I am sorry) She was a very curvaceous woman, about my age maybe a little older. I had a goal and that was to beat her. So the race began and I came up on her and passed her and never looked back. My first challenge was complete, I do wish I had remembered her number, but anyways I felt great next challenge the hill!
Chrissy and I trained for this around the neighborhood, no hills, no steep inclines nice and level. Remember, when training add a hill! I had to get up this hill and I did. Last challenge to keep running and don't stop! Okay I did stop running for all of 2 minutes then I saw the finish line. And I ran towards the gate after crossing the gate I was so relieved. Like a weight was lifted off my shoulders, and I was still alive!
Chrissy and I sat under a tree and drank water and cooled off. I do regret that I didn't experience the true meaning of this day. I was there focusing on running and nothing else. To me accomplishing this was my fight. On Sunday morning I did wake up and watch the highlights of that day, and that is when the emotions of that day hit. All those women fighting Breast Cancer.
The rest of Sunday I was in pain. I felt muscles that I didn't know I had. I did take it very easy Sunday and reflected on my adventure of running. I realize many things. I realize that even though I can jog it isn't the same as running. I realize that I can do better! And be better! I don't want to be a one time race runner that I want to do more. And in doing so I have to raise my minium no more a mile and that is okay. I HAVE TO DO MORE TO GET MORE! My new motto. I have to be the complete package. I can't just do one and not another, I have to do both eating better and exercising. So what am I going to do about this.
As you know I had been going to Weight Watchers, and even though I did lose weight I didn't stay on program. Yes, I am being honest, I didn't keep track no one ever looked at my food journal so I figured if no one sees what I have eaten then did I really eat it? I know pretty stupid, but if you have a weight problem I think you might have an idea what I am saying. So I plan on going back to Weight Watchers first week of July and talking to the leader. And even if I have to pay her extra I have to have her check my food journal, it is the only way I will stay with it and be held accountable. I am also challenging my fellow bloggers and friends, shoot me an email or comment and ask me about it. I realized that the more people ask me about my eating the better I do. I don't think I will get to my birthday goal, and that is okay. But I will be a lot healthier at 37 then I was the past 20 something years.
I also want to thank everyone for your nice comments and encouraging words! You have kept me going and I hope that in a small way I can do the same. I did delete my blog for a while because I didn't feel that I had anything to say, but I realize that I do. Thanks, for listening and caring.
Last Saturday I got up at 4:30 am got ready and Chrissy Adams and I went to St Louis. I won't bore you with all the details, so here are the highlights!
After getting our shirts and pictures taken we headed to the starting line. They block all the runner together so that we can pass through the gate that times us. By the way, technology is truly amazes me. On the racing bib is a thing that looks like double sided tape and that is what tracked us at the start and finish line.
Anyways, back to the starting line, we got there and there was no one that looked like me! I am truly freaking out! On the verge of tears I mean all these people are skinny and are a true runner-then I saw her! She was my target! (Really hope that I don't offend anyone and if I do I am sorry) She was a very curvaceous woman, about my age maybe a little older. I had a goal and that was to beat her. So the race began and I came up on her and passed her and never looked back. My first challenge was complete, I do wish I had remembered her number, but anyways I felt great next challenge the hill!
Chrissy and I trained for this around the neighborhood, no hills, no steep inclines nice and level. Remember, when training add a hill! I had to get up this hill and I did. Last challenge to keep running and don't stop! Okay I did stop running for all of 2 minutes then I saw the finish line. And I ran towards the gate after crossing the gate I was so relieved. Like a weight was lifted off my shoulders, and I was still alive!
Chrissy and I sat under a tree and drank water and cooled off. I do regret that I didn't experience the true meaning of this day. I was there focusing on running and nothing else. To me accomplishing this was my fight. On Sunday morning I did wake up and watch the highlights of that day, and that is when the emotions of that day hit. All those women fighting Breast Cancer.
The rest of Sunday I was in pain. I felt muscles that I didn't know I had. I did take it very easy Sunday and reflected on my adventure of running. I realize many things. I realize that even though I can jog it isn't the same as running. I realize that I can do better! And be better! I don't want to be a one time race runner that I want to do more. And in doing so I have to raise my minium no more a mile and that is okay. I HAVE TO DO MORE TO GET MORE! My new motto. I have to be the complete package. I can't just do one and not another, I have to do both eating better and exercising. So what am I going to do about this.
As you know I had been going to Weight Watchers, and even though I did lose weight I didn't stay on program. Yes, I am being honest, I didn't keep track no one ever looked at my food journal so I figured if no one sees what I have eaten then did I really eat it? I know pretty stupid, but if you have a weight problem I think you might have an idea what I am saying. So I plan on going back to Weight Watchers first week of July and talking to the leader. And even if I have to pay her extra I have to have her check my food journal, it is the only way I will stay with it and be held accountable. I am also challenging my fellow bloggers and friends, shoot me an email or comment and ask me about it. I realized that the more people ask me about my eating the better I do. I don't think I will get to my birthday goal, and that is okay. But I will be a lot healthier at 37 then I was the past 20 something years.
I also want to thank everyone for your nice comments and encouraging words! You have kept me going and I hope that in a small way I can do the same. I did delete my blog for a while because I didn't feel that I had anything to say, but I realize that I do. Thanks, for listening and caring.
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